I probably was around my highest weight here, which was 224 pounds. I did not weigh for years, because it was too depressing. I didn't even own a scale for several years.
Sunday, September 8, 2013
Muffin Top - Front View - Size 16 Mid-Rise Jeans - 188 Lbs. - September 7, 2013
This is the front view of me wearing the size 16 mid-rise jeans at 188 lbs. on September 7, 2013
Muffin Top - Side - 188 lbs. - September 7, 2013
I am wearing the cheap mid-rise size 16 jeans. So now I know what "muffin top" means!
Saturday, September 7, 2013
Daily Food Journal - Friday, September 5, 2013
Friday, September 5, 2013
I have a slight headache this morning, probably because I sucked in so much chocolate syrup yesterday. I finally had to throw the last little dab of it away, because I had reached 3000 calories consumed for the day.
Sis says I do not eat healthy food. Maybe. I started off with coffee and a microwaved corn dog, which totals up to slightly more than 300 calories.
I guess I'll drink some Slim Fast with skim milk, so add 200 more calories, for a daily total of 500 so far. It's ten A.M.
The day went downhill from there. I wrote it all down in my continuing journal for September.
I have a slight headache this morning, probably because I sucked in so much chocolate syrup yesterday. I finally had to throw the last little dab of it away, because I had reached 3000 calories consumed for the day.
Sis says I do not eat healthy food. Maybe. I started off with coffee and a microwaved corn dog, which totals up to slightly more than 300 calories.
I guess I'll drink some Slim Fast with skim milk, so add 200 more calories, for a daily total of 500 so far. It's ten A.M.
The day went downhill from there. I wrote it all down in my continuing journal for September.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
God Supplies All Your Needs?
I finally decided to seek the kingdom of God first, because I plan to let Him show off what he can do. If I remember the scripture correctly, it says: "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you."
So, studying further computer programming, adding extra education certifications, starting an online business -- all these important things are not as important as seeking God and his kingdom.
In obedience to this verse, I decided to open this book Marilyn Hickey sent me. I scanned the chapter headings, and decided to skeptically read the last chapter first.
The last chapter was talking about how people who financially partner with other ministers to help spread the gospel will have all their needs supplied by God.
Paul was talking to the Phillipians, thanking them for helping him spread the gospel by supporting him financially. The Phillipians were the only church that had responded when he had asked for help, even though he had asked several churches through his letters.
It was only then that Paul told them, "But my God will supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus."
The point is that because they gave to help spread the gospel, and they sent Paul gifts more than once, in a form of partnership -- because they partnered with Paul to spread the good news of Jesus Christ, God would supply all their needs.
So, studying further computer programming, adding extra education certifications, starting an online business -- all these important things are not as important as seeking God and his kingdom.
In obedience to this verse, I decided to open this book Marilyn Hickey sent me. I scanned the chapter headings, and decided to skeptically read the last chapter first.
The last chapter was talking about how people who financially partner with other ministers to help spread the gospel will have all their needs supplied by God.
Paul was talking to the Phillipians, thanking them for helping him spread the gospel by supporting him financially. The Phillipians were the only church that had responded when he had asked for help, even though he had asked several churches through his letters.
It was only then that Paul told them, "But my God will supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus."
The point is that because they gave to help spread the gospel, and they sent Paul gifts more than once, in a form of partnership -- because they partnered with Paul to spread the good news of Jesus Christ, God would supply all their needs.
September 2013 Weight Loss Journal
I started the month of September weighing almost five pounds up from my lowest weight, of 186.8, the day before. Not a failure, though -- I just ate a ton of food that day (3000 calories!), many of them very salty, the last day of August. Most of the weight gain was water retained.
SU SEPT 01 191.4 2400
MO SEPT 02 187.8 2600
TU SEPT 03 187.4 1950
WE SEPT 04 187.8 2600
TH SEPT 05 188.2 3000
FR SEPT 06 188.8 2500
SA SEPT 07 188.2 1600
SU SEPT 08 187.0 1750
MO SEPT 09 185.8 2200
TU SEPT 10 185.8 2100
WE SEPT 11 185.4 1950
TH SEPT 12 184.8 2400
FR SEPT 13 186.6 2000
SA SEPT 14 184.8 2000
SU SEPT 15 186.8 2000
MO SEPT 16 186.4 2000
TU SEPT 17 185.6 2100
WE SEPT 18 185.6 2200
TH SEPT 19 185.6 2200
FR SEPT 20 185.0 2200
SA SEPT 21 185.0 4000
SU SEPT 22 189.0 2200
MO SEPT 23 186.6 2200
TU SEPT 24 186.6 2200
WE SEPT 25 186.0 2100
TH SEPT 26 186.6
OBSERVATIONS:
My sister keeps calling me at supper time, after I've already eaten plenty for the day, and invites me to eat at her house. I have got to refuse her invite more often, or else I will not be losing the measly 3 pounds per month that I have been shedding thus far. I could even gain my 27 pounds back, if I don't learn how to "Just Say 'NO!'"
Both my sister and I are dieting, but I am not in competition with her. I want her to successfully take off her excess weight, for her health's sake, because she has two stents in her heart, mostly the result of smoking for a couple of decades when she was younger. I want her to get back to her skinny self, so there will be less strain on her heart.
My sister's weight is currently about 15 pounds under mine. As I already stated, we are not in competition, but I am beginning to suspect that she is subconsciously undermining my diet by inviting me to a great supper every night.
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Before daylight today, I noticed a plastic bag in the fridge. It was some sort of trail mix that Sis had given me a few days ago. It had 142 calories per quarter cup, and after eating a full cup plus of that salty "snack" I had to throw the rest in the dirty trash container. It was the easiest way to stop eating on it. If you cannot leave it alone, just toss it out!
Also, these last few days I have noticed the chocolate syrup that Daughter left for my sick hubby. He doesn't really like it -- He prefers strawberry syrup. But I LOVE chocolate. And it has 50 calories per tablespoon. I have used it as a substitute for candy bars these last few days, but if it comes to the point where I'm eating more than 4 tablespoons (200 calories!) of it per day, then I will have to wash the remainder of it down the sink.
Last night I missed Sis's supper, which consisted of my favorite food: Mexican. I was at Wally World, eating salt and vinegar chips and a lunchable. I probably didn't spare too many calories by missing the free meal, but at least I didn't break 2000 calories for the day.
This morning at 4:00 AM, I woke up to Richard Simmons. So I decided to do some little exercises while lying in bed. I would do 5 reps of various types of leg lifts and arm lifts, and the like. And I was so WINDED! Are you kidding me? How out of shape am I?
Having said that, I am not going to do 30 minutes of cardio a day. I do not want cardiac arrest. I will do 2 to 5 minutes of exercise in my bed about 5 days a week. That seems like a safe start for me.
I saw some video about how exercise can cause plaque to break free from a clogged artery and cause bleeding, which leads to a clot. That clot can cause a heart attack or stroke. So, oh no, no, no, no! I will not be stressing my heart too much all of a sudden. I will EASE into exercise.
Friday, September 6, 2013
Okay, I need to quit answering my phone after 4:30 PM, so I won't let my sister talk me into coming for supper.
I finally had to throw away what was left of the chocolate syrup. I just could not leave it alone today.
I am not doing so hot for the month of September thus far. I am steadily gaining weight, because I am continuing to eat too much.
Saturday, September 7, 2013
So today I made cornbread muffins, baked with cheese and jalopenos. Each only had 125 calories, but I ate EIGHT of them. I had to give the last four away to my daughter next door.
With the muffins gone, I turned my attention to the Little Debbie's Strawberry Shortcake Rolls, which have 240 calories each. Daughter bought them for my paralyzed hubby, but he no longer likes them. I ate THREE today -- 720 calories. Then I reluctantly smashed the remaining two and put them in with the messy trash.
With these binge behaviors, I wound up eating 2500 calories for the day, even though I did NOT go to my sister's house to eat.
Not a very successful dieting day yesterday.
So today I am trying a different approach. I am looking at my new pair of size 16 petite jeans I bought on clearance at Wally World a few days ago for $9. (Obviously, I did not plan to spend much money on clothes that I did not expect to wear for very long!) These jeans are about an inch away from buttoning. Hopefully, they will inspire me to stop bingeing.
The plan is to get into those inspiration jeans as soon as possible, to wear them while they fit, and to use them to do dirty chores in once they become too big. I can paint or auto mechanic in them.
As for today, I thought it might be a good idea to drink Slim Fast today, instead of eating solid food. Let's see if that will get me below my lowest weight of 186.8. Right now I am up almost 2 pounds from there.
I am tired of such a S-L-O-O-O-W weight loss!
Sunday, September 8, 2013
I did not see my sister at all yesterday, and my calorie count was 1600. I did go to the dollar store with my daughter, where I ate a small bag of Cheetos (170 cals.), one Lindor Truffle (80 cals.), and one nutty ice cream cone (290 cals.). So the BEST day to diet would be one where I stay away from both my daughter and my sister, I'm thinking.
I did not see my sister at all today, so I did not eat any of her great cooking. I think Sis is involved with her grandchildren's sports. Too busy to invite me to supper, which is a good thing for my diet.
Monday, September 9, 2013
Finally, ths scale shows 185.8. Another pound lost! Halleleujah!
Wednesday, September 18, 2013u
Well, the scale did show 184.8 awhile back, but it didn't stay there long.
I realized yesterday that my diet is roughly based on my eating every day the number of calories it might take to maintain my desired weight of 124 pounds. I usually eat around 2000 to 2500 calories each day, and I lose weight very slowly.
I realized just a moment ago that my weight loss is at a standstill because I don't spend much time moving around. I lie in bed way too much, just using the computer.
SU SEPT 01 191.4 2400
MO SEPT 02 187.8 2600
TU SEPT 03 187.4 1950
WE SEPT 04 187.8 2600
TH SEPT 05 188.2 3000
FR SEPT 06 188.8 2500
SA SEPT 07 188.2 1600
SU SEPT 08 187.0 1750
MO SEPT 09 185.8 2200
TU SEPT 10 185.8 2100
WE SEPT 11 185.4 1950
TH SEPT 12 184.8 2400
FR SEPT 13 186.6 2000
SA SEPT 14 184.8 2000
SU SEPT 15 186.8 2000
MO SEPT 16 186.4 2000
TU SEPT 17 185.6 2100
WE SEPT 18 185.6 2200
TH SEPT 19 185.6 2200
FR SEPT 20 185.0 2200
SA SEPT 21 185.0 4000
SU SEPT 22 189.0 2200
MO SEPT 23 186.6 2200
TU SEPT 24 186.6 2200
WE SEPT 25 186.0 2100
TH SEPT 26 186.6
OBSERVATIONS:
My sister keeps calling me at supper time, after I've already eaten plenty for the day, and invites me to eat at her house. I have got to refuse her invite more often, or else I will not be losing the measly 3 pounds per month that I have been shedding thus far. I could even gain my 27 pounds back, if I don't learn how to "Just Say 'NO!'"
Both my sister and I are dieting, but I am not in competition with her. I want her to successfully take off her excess weight, for her health's sake, because she has two stents in her heart, mostly the result of smoking for a couple of decades when she was younger. I want her to get back to her skinny self, so there will be less strain on her heart.
My sister's weight is currently about 15 pounds under mine. As I already stated, we are not in competition, but I am beginning to suspect that she is subconsciously undermining my diet by inviting me to a great supper every night.
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Before daylight today, I noticed a plastic bag in the fridge. It was some sort of trail mix that Sis had given me a few days ago. It had 142 calories per quarter cup, and after eating a full cup plus of that salty "snack" I had to throw the rest in the dirty trash container. It was the easiest way to stop eating on it. If you cannot leave it alone, just toss it out!
Also, these last few days I have noticed the chocolate syrup that Daughter left for my sick hubby. He doesn't really like it -- He prefers strawberry syrup. But I LOVE chocolate. And it has 50 calories per tablespoon. I have used it as a substitute for candy bars these last few days, but if it comes to the point where I'm eating more than 4 tablespoons (200 calories!) of it per day, then I will have to wash the remainder of it down the sink.
Last night I missed Sis's supper, which consisted of my favorite food: Mexican. I was at Wally World, eating salt and vinegar chips and a lunchable. I probably didn't spare too many calories by missing the free meal, but at least I didn't break 2000 calories for the day.
This morning at 4:00 AM, I woke up to Richard Simmons. So I decided to do some little exercises while lying in bed. I would do 5 reps of various types of leg lifts and arm lifts, and the like. And I was so WINDED! Are you kidding me? How out of shape am I?
Having said that, I am not going to do 30 minutes of cardio a day. I do not want cardiac arrest. I will do 2 to 5 minutes of exercise in my bed about 5 days a week. That seems like a safe start for me.
I saw some video about how exercise can cause plaque to break free from a clogged artery and cause bleeding, which leads to a clot. That clot can cause a heart attack or stroke. So, oh no, no, no, no! I will not be stressing my heart too much all of a sudden. I will EASE into exercise.
Friday, September 6, 2013
Okay, I need to quit answering my phone after 4:30 PM, so I won't let my sister talk me into coming for supper.
I finally had to throw away what was left of the chocolate syrup. I just could not leave it alone today.
I am not doing so hot for the month of September thus far. I am steadily gaining weight, because I am continuing to eat too much.
Saturday, September 7, 2013
So today I made cornbread muffins, baked with cheese and jalopenos. Each only had 125 calories, but I ate EIGHT of them. I had to give the last four away to my daughter next door.
With the muffins gone, I turned my attention to the Little Debbie's Strawberry Shortcake Rolls, which have 240 calories each. Daughter bought them for my paralyzed hubby, but he no longer likes them. I ate THREE today -- 720 calories. Then I reluctantly smashed the remaining two and put them in with the messy trash.
With these binge behaviors, I wound up eating 2500 calories for the day, even though I did NOT go to my sister's house to eat.
Not a very successful dieting day yesterday.
So today I am trying a different approach. I am looking at my new pair of size 16 petite jeans I bought on clearance at Wally World a few days ago for $9. (Obviously, I did not plan to spend much money on clothes that I did not expect to wear for very long!) These jeans are about an inch away from buttoning. Hopefully, they will inspire me to stop bingeing.
The plan is to get into those inspiration jeans as soon as possible, to wear them while they fit, and to use them to do dirty chores in once they become too big. I can paint or auto mechanic in them.
As for today, I thought it might be a good idea to drink Slim Fast today, instead of eating solid food. Let's see if that will get me below my lowest weight of 186.8. Right now I am up almost 2 pounds from there.
I am tired of such a S-L-O-O-O-W weight loss!
Sunday, September 8, 2013
I did not see my sister at all yesterday, and my calorie count was 1600. I did go to the dollar store with my daughter, where I ate a small bag of Cheetos (170 cals.), one Lindor Truffle (80 cals.), and one nutty ice cream cone (290 cals.). So the BEST day to diet would be one where I stay away from both my daughter and my sister, I'm thinking.
I did not see my sister at all today, so I did not eat any of her great cooking. I think Sis is involved with her grandchildren's sports. Too busy to invite me to supper, which is a good thing for my diet.
Monday, September 9, 2013
Finally, ths scale shows 185.8. Another pound lost! Halleleujah!
Wednesday, September 18, 2013u
Well, the scale did show 184.8 awhile back, but it didn't stay there long.
I realized yesterday that my diet is roughly based on my eating every day the number of calories it might take to maintain my desired weight of 124 pounds. I usually eat around 2000 to 2500 calories each day, and I lose weight very slowly.
I realized just a moment ago that my weight loss is at a standstill because I don't spend much time moving around. I lie in bed way too much, just using the computer.
Monday, September 2, 2013
Broad, Long-Term Goals: Suzi's Bucket List
Goals I Want to Accomplish Before I Die
These are listed as I thought of them, not in order of importance.
1. See Machu Picchu
2. Speak basic Russian
3. Travel Spanish-speaking countries
4. Return to Germany for a visit
5. Travel the Lower 48 in my van
6. See the Grand Canyon
7. Have a small cabin in Eastern Oklahoma in Choctaw Territory
8. Get down to 122 pounds and stay at that weight or below for the remainder of my life
9. Write self-help books
10. Write my autobiography
11. Write a comprehensive Spanish course
12. Write a comprehensive English course
13. Speak German well
14. Read Italian
15. Read Portuguese
16. Read French
17. Learn the Thai alphabet
18. Program computers
19. Learn enough auto mechanics to maintain my vehicles
20. Buy the kids a trailer
21. Buy a house in Killeen, or wherever the great-grandkids happen to live
22. Pre-pay my funeral
23. Make videos
These are listed as I thought of them, not in order of importance.
1. See Machu Picchu
2. Speak basic Russian
3. Travel Spanish-speaking countries
4. Return to Germany for a visit
5. Travel the Lower 48 in my van
6. See the Grand Canyon
7. Have a small cabin in Eastern Oklahoma in Choctaw Territory
8. Get down to 122 pounds and stay at that weight or below for the remainder of my life
9. Write self-help books
10. Write my autobiography
11. Write a comprehensive Spanish course
12. Write a comprehensive English course
13. Speak German well
14. Read Italian
15. Read Portuguese
16. Read French
17. Learn the Thai alphabet
18. Program computers
19. Learn enough auto mechanics to maintain my vehicles
20. Buy the kids a trailer
21. Buy a house in Killeen, or wherever the great-grandkids happen to live
22. Pre-pay my funeral
23. Make videos
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